Friday, June 30, 2017

Passports, Papers, and People

Today I leave for the Middle East for two weeks in Lebanon working with teenage Syrian refugees and then two weeks in Israel/Palestine for vacation.

A particular challenge around this trip has been the management of travel and passport documents. If you have evidence of travel or entry to Israel on your airline tickets or passport, Lebanon won't let you in. If you show a similar connection to Lebanon, Israel will scrutinize you closely. Traveling in this region often means navigating political, social, and religious boundaries, a situation that foments distrust and hatred.


In my case, the State Department made a mistake on my paperwork and I have spent the better part of this week making multiple calls, filling out duplicate paperwork, befriending my local FedX courier, and making numerous trips to the federal building in San Francisco to rectify the situation. To say this has been aggravating would be an understatement.

When I feel my anger rising at the inconvenience and incompetence, I remind myself about the millions of Syrian refugees who have no documentation and very little possibility of tasting the freedom of movement that the UN Universal Declaration of Human Rights advocates for all people.

The seven-year conflict in Syria has displaced over 50% of population, both within as well as beyond its borders. According to the UN, nearly 12 million Syrians are desperate and in need of humanitarian aid. Just to put that in perspective, that would be the equivalent of the population Ohio, my new home state!

The social toll on host countries like Jordan, Turkey, Iraq, Egypt and Lebanon is staggering. Currently, Lebanon hosts nearly 2 million refugees, a figure that means one in five people living in Lebanon are Syrian refugees. And given the enmity between these two countries, life is fraught for both the refugees and their hosts.

While I grumble and complain about sifting and sorting through the mess the Passport Agency mistakenly created, I am well aware that I have the ability to advocate for a resolution. I have the freedom to jump on a plane and travel to the farthest ends of the earth. I fully expect that I will return to my home country safe and sound.

Most refuges have no such hope. Unaccompanied children and teenagers don’t have the benefit of family, country, culture, or education. Adults have no access to essential paperwork or funds necessary for emigration. Without passports, work permits, or country status, they often become the exploited underclass, living just beyond subsistence levels. For many Syrians, their comfortable middle-class lives have been shattered by the war. For many children, stress, distress, and trauma is only what they know.

As I prepare to leave, I’m trying to wrap my head around this crisis, something that overwhelms me. I feel guilty for not having been more aware of what’s going on. I’m ashamed to say that I have guarded my heart with indifference. I have more in common with the self-important religious person featured in the parable of the Good Samaritan than I care to admit.

I am not hopeful that what I will do there will make much difference in a global perspective. But I do know that it will make a difference in my life.

I want that hard shell surrounding my soul to break apart with stories that stir up compassion and advocacy for the suffering innocents of Syria.

I want these stories to be about people, real people, that I will come to know and care about.

I want these stories to wake us up to their plight and motivate us to respond.

Then perhaps passports and papers as well as the people behind them will motivate us to open our hearts and borders.

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Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Love and Leave

"Let them deny themselves, take up the cross, and follow me."  Matthew 16:24

It has been over two years since I left my long-time pastorate in Berkeley to assume an interim senior pastor role at Sunnyvale Presbyterian Church. And now, I am leaving that community for yet another call. 

Love and leave.  

I know this is way of ministry but in the case of Sunnyvale, I didn't anticipate how deeply connected I would feel to the people there. Who would ever have guessed that such a garden of love could be cultivated in 2 short years? How could I have known that first day there that it would hurt so much to leave. 

And yet, even in this overwhelming grief, the horizon is filled with possibilities and a renewed sense of mission. A community in Cincinnati beckons where I know my love for God and God's people will continue to flourish. Mt. Washington Presbyterian Church has already embraced me and I am loving them right back. I'm excited and thrilled for this next step. It is a journey filled with hope and joy and I can't wait to be there.  

Even so, I know from the beginning, this will be another place where I will be called to love and leave. After all, we always take our leave at some point, don't we?

I know that Jesus had to have felt this same grief when he entered into the exhilarating vulnerability of loving his friends and family over 2,000 years ago. Relationships were his currency and he loved deeply and with abandon. So with the cross looming, how did he face that last night in Gethsemane? I ask you, how does one leave when the pain is so intense? Following God's call and command can help. Anticipating future joy can provide perspective.  Pursuing a greater good can produce courage. But even when one has a choice, does it really ease the grief?


Bas-Relief in the Garden of Gethsemane in Jerusalem
When friends are no longer proximate and prayer seems just an internal conversation, when pain is a given and support systems are gone, tears seem like a reasonable response. No wonder Jesus' tears turned blood red.  

Loving and leaving hurts.  

And yet, without Jesus' departure, the disciples would have likely remained an insular, immature bunch. Remember it was Jesus himself who told those same disciples, the ones who would betray and desert him, that they would do even greater works than him.


"Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father."  John 14:12

Loving and leaving - can it really lead to deeper transformation?  

The only way to know is to go forward - embracing the grief and then entering into another set of probabilities and possibilities. What is around the corner will be different but it will be good.  At least that is the hope.   


Love and leave.  I think I can do this.